new job!

Whew. I applied for this silly job back in January. They lost my application! I re-applied and they called 45 minutes later. i went in for an interview, smiled and nodded, and was hired pending 2 things. 1) Peeing in a cup. ew. 2) FBI background check. Crap. No, i'm not on any watchlists or BS like that, although i do know a few people that are or should be. But i do have that pesky restraining order. What will pop up and how do i explain? "Well, see, i dated this guy that liked..." Nevermind. Cant do that to him, no matter how mad i am. but if this stops me from getting a job, i'll have to do something. Well, came back clear, so i got the job. Yeah!

Now, i have been with this guy nonstop for the last few weeks. If you are an avid reader, you might remember the guy from the bar? Yeah, him. We did coffee, and talked, and turns out he's really really nice. I had to go thru an adjustment to make sure my feelings were real, not just transferred... i'll let you know how that goes. My other friend, the one that moved the beginning of this month? Yeah, the 1 month time frame i gave myself? Well, he's 'bout there. Sad.

Disappearing friends Again!

Truthfully, this one isn't disappearing in my definition of the word. He's moving. And i'm happy for him because i understand why, but sad because i can foresee that within a month or so... this friendship will be tested. Moreso than it already has been. And by mothers' day one or the other will have disappeared totally. emails will be passed for awhile, random, at bizarre intervals. those too will taper off. Like a sailboat at sunset, it will gradual and unnoticed until the day he picks up the phone and hears... "This number has been changed and is no longer in service." Painful, the one friend i never thought i had to disappear from.

Disappearing friends

He pulled my act! He had us all fooled. He said he was moving things around and he left! No good-byes, until my friend called me and asked what i knew. I know nothing of this situation, so i called him, the disappearing act. He filled my head with what goes on when i am not at that house. I cant say i am surprised. When 2 of the 3 housemates get together, shit is talked. What made me think i was so special that i wouldn't be talked about? What made me think my friend would stand up for me, even? Apparently i was wrong on both counts. Talk about your sucker-fish.

Restraining Order??

Okay- i'm very mad right now... I was playing on Matt's computer, showing Allen and Kevin how to look up their criminal records. Dont ask me why we were doing this... Boredom takes a new toll when your high. Typed in their names, got nothing. Which they found thrilling since they're self-proclaimed bad-asses. Let me figure out how to run California, and i'm sure you wont be as spotless! But I digress. I typed in MY name; at least i know i have a divorce and some traffic tickets to brag about. (Yeah, i'm a self-proclaimed bad-ass too.) What popped up though was NOT the usual traffic violations i'm so famous for. What popped up was a restraining order! FROM JC, OF ALL PEOPLE.

I ran to the courthouse this AM, printed out the paperwork. This fool has written that he believed since i was in his care, i was responsible for doing what we did. He's seeking protection from his work, home, and CiS office. Yes, Seriously! Now this actually works in my favor, since before i couldn't fully disclose anything about our relationship. But i contacted the King County Prosecutor, who informed me of 2 things: 1) It's not legal until I'm served (This doesn't matter cause i have no desire to speak to JC anyway) and 2) since HE disclosed private details, now i can.

I wont go into our relationship, suffice to say that he fu**ed up. Or rather, he fu**ed anything that would show him attention. And if i wanted to hurt him, i would go into detail. But he was thrown back in jail, ending our relationship. And now this? He's better off behind bars, where i cant get him, i suppose.

New friends?

Okay- last week, i got hit with a few blows. and sitting in a bar, having my friends roommate have to baby-sit me from a stranger with roving hands didn't help my cause. This guy wouldn't take the hint! Recapping for my friend, he informed me that i was teasing his roommate that liked me as more than a friend, but i didn't see it. Self-realization slapped me upside the head. Am i sending out mixed signals?? Im not looking for anything right now. Especially after the shit pulled on V-day, no way. Im not getting hurt again. Yet as i write this, my hand wanders to the phone, dials my business voicemail number, and i hear the voice of a man that did not give up. 10-20 calls per day... maybe he sees something others don't? Something I, myself have missed? Ponderous.