Gio vs mom

Well, today was an eye opener. I keep in contact with my Grandma, who let me know that my mom... no wait, there's a back story. When i was 21, i was diagnosed with Bi-polar/Manic depressive. If you don't have it, that sounds like that biggest oxymoron- Manic-depressive? Is that possible? Yeah, because i was either on RUNRUNRUNRUNRUNRUNRUNRUN mode, or i really don't even feel like pushing the blankets off me, getting out of bed wasn't even on my top 10list of MUST DO'S. And there was nothing that would cause this switch- it just happened. Looking back, it had been going on for awhile, but i could always find a blame. Something my boyfriend had done made me have to drive to alki beach at 4AM. The fact that somebody said "don't" meant i HAD to.  We went to this charity dinner at my grandma's church, where she actually introduced me as her granddaughter with bi-polar. I dont know why i was so hurt, it might have been the disease, but it hurt pretty bad. This is how my grandma thought of me? Shouldn't it be kept within the family? I remember crying to my mom, so pissed at grandma it hurt to think the words. So... fast forward 10 years, my sister's fianc'e has met me twice. The first time ended in a family fight, the second i wanted to kick his butt. So when grandma called me today to tell me that my mom was telling Gio secrets to make him feel closer to the family, i hit the roof. She had told this complete stranger, that she knew i didn't like, to basically forgive what i say, because i have bi-polar. Yea! another fight!  FML.

Gio

Introducing my sister's fianc'e, Gio. Due to some Bullshit in January, i dont know him as well as the rest of that household. But we met today, and it was NOT pretty. He is a petty, unemployed loser that talks shit about my mom as soon as she leaves the room. He played this card pretty well, i thought he was playing around with Cortney, but she kept hushing him, so he got louder. By the time she was done with dinner, i felt duty-bound to let her know what this idiot thought about her. The sad thing is, niether Grandma or Cortney stuck up for my mom. And this couldn't have been the first time he talked shit. I'm runnig a background check, ASAP. Asshole.

Michael B

It's been 5 years since my baby brother died. It's retarded to say "passed on" cause he didn't. He died. And although the church is helpful to some, if ONE more person tells me he's in a better place, they'll join him by my own hand. Grrrrr.......

Girlfriend

This is getting rediculous. My kitchen is still covered in salsa from last weeks drunken rage, and he did it again. Although this time i have an insiders POV.  a friend, that i trust 110%, saw Mike at the bar. With a girl. He introduced as his girlfriend. When he came home last night, he was beyond drunk. again with the shit thrown around the house, this time the bar in the bathroom broken. again. Today when i asked him about who his girlfriend was, he said (No shit) "I have to have a different one each time;you wont go out with me anymore" Whoa... it's MY fault? Okay, idiot... lets play this game.

Marlena

Wow. Boredom set in, and i started surfing facebook. I found my old bestfriend, i haven't talked to in about 5 years! She's married, and moved, her kids are all grown up. We had some fun times, she was dating my bestfriend- thats how we met. Some stuff happened, and i chose her over him. After i realized she had lied, i was hurt. And she was never happy with life, always wanting more than she could hope to accomplish. Now, aim high, of course, but when you have a pretty good life, quit reaching. Thats why we stopped talking- we had boyfriends, but she was always convinced we could do better.Everywhere we went, she would flirt, give out phone numbers, it was crazy. I'm not sure i'm ready to throw myself back into that drama again...