small blurb about surgery

 Well, Mike's Valentine's Day injury does need surgery. Hopefully we'll find out the date soon; he's anxious to get it over with and get to healing.

New Papa Sick

 So i just recently found my biological paternal family- and boy are there bunches!! 7 aunts and uncles, multitudes of cousins- a family reunion would be fantastic!! Except last summer we lost grandma Karen and she is the one that accepted me in to the family, so it wouldnt be the same without her. Im writing about papa today because he told my mom and i awhile back that if his cancer comes back, he wasnt going to fight it; he was going to be with Karen. I accepted that- 50 years together is an achievement and a half! Well, now he's in the hospital and it doesnt look good. They're doing all sorts of of tests and procedures on him, and since it turned out 2 of my aunts are royal bitches, im not allowed to go see him. It's bizarre- hen karen was on my side of the mountains i was there everyday with their mom, when they couldnt make the trip. All other aunts and uncles, even bitches husbands have no problem with me, but Joanne and crystal... bitches. Anyway, now im babbling so ill sign off, but papa, please get better! Theres memories i want to hear from you!!  

New Church!

 Mike and I just got home from Church. As much as i hate organized religion, i think we'll be going back. The ministry was personal, but not over-preachy, the congregation was super nice, the pastor's wife offered to pay my way to the Woman's retreat next weekend, multiple people reached out to make us feel comfortable.

All day yesterday i listened to mike boo-hoo cause he has no money. He wants nathan back because nate has money. Sick, but true. 

So he called Nate to ask for a loan, but didnt tell me this. What i got was (hands me the phone) "Help Nate." and he walks out of the room. Took awhile to get it all sorted out. 

An hour later he gets a phone call. "Yes babygirl...just a little bit... that would be great but 100 would be better...thank you, love you!" One can assume it was brandy offering her dad more money. Nope. It was his EX-girlfriend Lena. And did she send the money to mike? Nope. They decided they didnt want child support to know about it, so she sent it to me. Was i asked? NOPE. So... Do i have the right to be hurt/mad? I cant shake the feeling of being used.

From my mom... Cancer sucks.

 Yesterday a Radiologist Technician told me that she had a tumor so large that she couldn't see my ovary at all. She had no business telling anything, they have always told me they can't tell me anything but this woman apparently seen something and I believe God took it away. Everything came out great and her reports are good and she's fine except for the pain which will go away soon. Praise God! He has answered my prayers and my daughter is fine. Thank you again, you shall be blessed and well you know I appreciate you so ....... does that count? Lol jk