Fantastic 2

Okay, there are 2 underrated actors that i think need more attention because they are CUTE. All capitals, yes. Julian McMahon and Alfred Molina. WOW.  And i love lightning. My second tattoo is a thundercloud with 2 lightning bolts. (The guy said it was as girly as he wanted to make it...i didnt want girly,i wanted lightning.)  so mike was watching this guy that could make lightning appear, and it turned out to be Julian McNummy. I have to own this movie... Fantastic 4!

Eric

Okay, so a few days ago, i'm getting these pone calls from an unknown number. i dont answer my phone if i dont know, just let them leave a message. I was visiting Marlena that night, and this number called again! I was telling her about this number calling me about 6 times in the day, and she told me to answer it, i could hand her the phone if it was some creepy guy. So i answered, and this guy asks if i'm Melissa. i said "maybe...it depends" He laughed and said if i didn't know,who does? He introduced himself and asked if i might want to stop by sometime.  He lives in Fife, not that far from my city. I said sure, and he said he'd call me in a few days. I thought it was already a weird set-up, but what the hell, right? So i went over today and had a blast. He has 2 kids, adorable and brilliant. He's crazy loud, in your face, i had to take 2 anxiety pills just to stay focused. But it's nice to have friends again. He has 2 room mates, David and Jason, they're pretty cool. I didn't really visit with them, but they were nice. This could be fun, right?

I Pulled A Brittany

What is it about Easter that makes me cut my hair? My first boyfriend, when i was 18, was an Iraqi barber. I went to his house on Easter and he took my waist long hair and turned it into a bowl cut. Well, i one-upped him. Today i shaved my head. I'm sick of that being the first thing Mike grabs when he's "in the mood" because he thinks i like it. So, last night he was mad when he came home, surprise, and got a bit physical. So today i went to my mom's house, and used scissors to cut as much as i could, and shaved the rest. Talk about instant Ohshit. This was by-far the loudest cry for help i've never asked for...  Happy Easter.

i knew better

it's my fault. i got excited, and knew there would be something to knock me down. i chose to ignore it but in the back of my mind i knew it wouldn't work. King county houseing needed a 200 dollar deposit, with only a weekends notice. I cant afford 625 for this apartment and the 200 dollar rent there, and mike wouldn't listen to a word i said all weekend. i asked her if i could move in the first of may, pay the full 250 rent, so i can give notice to my landlord. They cant hold it for me, so i lost it.

NEW APARTMENT!!!!!!!

Wow- today was a 5 gold-star day, if ever there was one. Last night Mike came home pissed- (this is not the good part) but today was revenge and not by my own hands, so it was the icing on the cake. After him coming home pissed, my stuff's (always) packed, and i get a letter from King County Housing. I've been on the waiting list for SEVEN years!!!!  I got my apartment!!!!!!!  I am so so so psyched!!!!!!!!  can you tell?  Mike was pissed, like i did this on purpose, but it was God! I've been on this list for seven years, and looking for an out, and they collided at the perfect moment!!!!!

Irony!

Wow. i went to visit my friend Meghan, who i haven't seen in about a year. On the way, i saw this red car, driver on the phone, looking out the rear-view mirror for a cop (It's illegal to drive and talk in WA state) and this driver, while looking behind her? Rear-ended the truck in front of her that had slowed for a railroad crossing. I love Irony!

He's not gonna stop, is he?

i can threaten, i can pack, i can hate, yell, kick, scream, fight. He's never going to stop coming home drunk and angry, is he? I'm never going to be able to look at the clock after midnight without anxiety kicking in. I'm never going to just relax, without hiding/knowing where a spare change of clothes, shoes, and car keys are. As long as i live with him, i'll never be able to relax...

Emad!

Back in seattle. He is my first true love. And damn, he is still as cute as the first day i met him, 11 years ago.  And even though he's married, he still wanted to get a hotel room. And when i wouldn't, hewent hru my facebook friends and asked me about the girls on my friends list. And when i wouldn't call them to have sex with him, he left the country without even saying good-bye. So, in that sense, nothing has changed. :-P