Blessing bags

 Today was a different kind of Wednesday. We met at church early to assemble "Blessing Bags" to hand out to those in need. They had gloves, socks, snacks, protein bars, hand warmers, and some literature to come to our church. It was fun watching everyone work together to complete this project until i started getting that feeling. That feeling like im trapped in an elevator with 200 people. That feeling like something bad, very bad is about to happen. i could feel my face get hot, my ears started ringing, little lights flashing in front of my eyes. But WHY?? Im in CHURCH!!!! My only safe space- whats going on??? I really dont know what was triggering the panic attack, but as we wrapped up, my friend asked me if i wanted to go for a ride, and i knew i needed to. I didnt ask her if i looked like i felt, but we went for a drive and i calmed down. 

Bible class was, as always, fulfilling and i came away stronger, but it really bothers me that i was that close to the hyperventilating, shaking, mind-racing, when will they leave me alone panic attack.